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Ok so Im going to do a quick rundown of some of the things that have happened Since i last updated

~Im drawing again~
~I love my girlfriend- We went through a rough patch but made up~
~Im happier then ever- My girl has helped me alot with that~
~I still hate my job~
~I just came back from vacation- Went to Texas~
~I suppose im a nicer and better person now- Again thank my girlfriend for that~
~My Helio Ocean still kicks ass- Seriously whatever ur phone can do mine can do better~
~There was a high speed chase that involved a stolen car that crashed into the liquor store right across the street from my house and I recorded it so that was cool~

Im broke because my job fucked up my check for this week and since I dont want to re type everything so instead im just going to copy and paste what i wrote in my MySpace
So heres the story, its late and im broke. So i decide to go to my job and pick up my check so i can buy something to eat, maybe pay some bills and just have money in my pocket. So I go into my workplace and turns out they messed shit up and IM not going to get my check until next week. Sooooooooo now Im broke, soaking wet, alittle tired, and I have no FUCKING MONEY.... oh wait I already said that heh....... well yeah my job sucks....

On another note they did tell me they might be able to give me a cash advance tomorrow so hopefully ill be able to buy some food...... *Shakes fist* DAMN YOU PATHMARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But yea I really really hate my job...............

Well thats about all so
.................................Until Next Time ..............................
------------- DragonCloud ----------------

Hmmm good god was my last entry really *counts* Four months ago geez time certainly does fly now doesn't it? Well hello everyone how have u all been? Is everyone still alive? Or has everyone moved onto different mediums... I wonder. Ah well screw it for those still around and paying attention Hello. I must say it has been a long time since i've drawn anything worth wild I mean aside from the cute little pics I do for my girlfriend every now and then. I havent really drawn something good since my skills have been lacking recently but yeah I plan to change that eventually.
Uh... lets see in other news I just came back from spending five days in Texas with my girlfriend since I got a week off for vacation and she didnt have to work so it was awesome. I want to go back already since Im so bored of my current city. But I guess after traveling for a while its always nice to come home. And believe me boy have a traveled lol... anyway thats a story for another day and im getting off subject...........
*Ten minutes later*
Oh heh I forgot about this thing I went to get something to drink and started watching South Park lol. Anyway just wanted to update this thing and say hello to everyone so hopefully ill be uploading things soon and ill see ya guys around.

Well as always..............................................................Until Next time............
---- - DragonCloud= Anthony - ----

Somehow I feel as though Im living a life of solitude.... Those so-called friends of mine arent even around. I always thought why was I always the one going over why couldnt someone come here. Why must I make the commitment of traveling to visit. *Shrugs* Granted its not like they live very far away, but still. Just shows what they think of our friendship; so I've come to the conclusion that they can just fuck themselfs. So recently or should I say in the last three years because of all the stress I've been threw, my life has become similare to that of a hermit. All I do is work, go home, eat, and sleep, to wake up and do the same process all over again. My education has been put on hold for the moment both in marital arts and in just general schoolin. I feel as though my minds racing at a million miles a second and I do nothing, but patheticly watch it go by. It angers me to see where I am in life at the moment. I hate myself for letting things come to do this..I wish I had an outlet something to get rid of my stress and my anger.

I want to reach out to something or someone, and granted theres my girlfriend. However I've just been a bad boyfriend as of late, been getting mad at her alot. When granted I may be mad at some of the things she does, but I suppose Im more angry at myself. Im amazed that shes stood by my side this long. Heh guess she does love me and that thought makes me really happy. But, I dare not ask for her help, she has to many things on her plate right now herself. And its much better for her to deal with her own problems without havin me compounding things ontop of her. Still though everything I use to do before I cant do now, and skills in art have laxed in these three years. I cant ride my bike or should I say I can but then Id have to deal with the flu I believe I have or something. I've been quite sick as of late, My body feels like its dying. I dont have the strength I had before, I wake up at times and also during the day with sharp pains. Its like a white hot knife poking me ever so voilently all over my body. Not to mention my legs giving out which hasnt happened in a while, but sometimes at work or while walking a leg will give out and Ill fall to one knee. Or catch myself before I hit the ground, and after a few seconds Ill be fine.

Quite strange... i dont know whats going on anymore, I didnt know what the furture had instored for me before but at least then...I had somewhat of a glimps of Where i was going, What I was doing, An Idea of What was going to happen. Now, I feel as though Im in darkness again, a darkness Ive exprienced my whole life. And this time there is no glimps of light or path I should take. All there is now is me alone in a world of uncertinty, surrounded by evil, evil that trys to bring me down and keep me from accomplishing anything big or small....... ........

You know one thing I've always like about typing in these journals is that once I get to the end I can read back and reflect. its like having a conversation with myself and in the mists of this somewhat emo entry. I find myself again and remind myself of what has to be done. It makes me happy because in lookin towards the furture and reflecting on my past I remind myself of my resolve. Granted I make forget, I may shove it aside, I may ignore it, but in the end it always comes back and my WILL my STRENGTH returns. Heh.... maybe this was an outlett all along. Reguardless of how far I fall into darkness, reguardless of where it takes me, reguardless if I forget, or ignore, or shove to the side. My resolve, my will, will not shattered, and even if it takes me another three years, or four, or five, or a million I will accomplish my goals. Even if the strange pains get worse and my body finaly gives out it wont stop me. Heh I may be a hermit now but that wont last for long it'll past and it'll return. Etiher way Im ready now, and I face this darkness with a grin because nothing is going to stop me. Hmmm.. I fell much better now.. I havent felt this good in a while Im glad I got on and typed this little entry Heh well time to face another day

Ahhhhhh...yes internet is back and now that I'm back from my little vaction once again there will be some changing to this thing like some of the so called dev-friends i have hear granted sicne u dont pay much attension to these anymore u won't realize when i remove u and dont expect anything u were waiting *Glares* You all now who u are anyway *stretches* time to finish all my updates to my computer OH! and is it just me but wasn't .Dot Hack Rebirth alittle bit to easy I mean I beat it in three days and all I need is one more book of 1000 to be completed and I will have unlocked everything weird huh? Guess Im getting alittle to good with these things *Shrugs* oh well